Someday's I hate being a woman! I blame the fact that I have a vagina that I am an emotional disaster! One day I am the strong independent woman who doesn't need a man, and the next i am a sorry excuse for a human being crying over every little thing and needing someone to hold my hand through it all. other days i am just really pissed off...and why? I have no fucking clue! After 23 years, I am so over it! I am so angry that i don't know what to expect from one day to the next. Some would say i have a choice whether or not to be happy, i swear..I DON'T! I try putting a smile on my face, listening to my favorite music, being nice, going to a place where there is nice people...nothing. absolutely nothing. that when things just piss me off some more. Why do things have to be this complicated. Not only do i have to deal with these dumb-ass sever mood swings, i also have to explain myself. like what the hell!?! If i had any fucking clue as to why i feel the way i do when i feel that way, don't you think i would fucking fix it! my god! i don't enjoy being this way. ...maybe i need help, a shrink? ...no they would just put me on med i never needed to be on in the first place. well..shit! i always knew it was going to take a strong man to handle me, but i never thought it would take a strong me to handle be. HOW FUCKING FANTASTIC!
